Eye to eye

"Looking deep in the eyes" - I'm not in full control of this language but where I come from, we have the same expression...

So, what do I do? Look deep in the eyes. What do I see? Luckily, I can see a reflection of me looking at the big green eyes... But that means more than just a pure reflex of me - it is there, deep inside...Isn't that where I was supposed to look in the first place??

I could be looking at this picture for hours...(as a matter of fact, it is probably close to the first hour now and as demonstrated by the amount of writing, I kind of go into this stage of "trance", my shoulders relax my heart beats slightly stronger - so much so that I can feel it in my chest - and I can hear my breath).

What has happened to me? What has changed? Why do I see what I see now? Why not before?

I think I might have found some path that might lead me to the answer - I think that my contact lenses were just to dirty! I couldn't see the world properly. I couldn't see what I can see now. I missed out on a lot. But during the month of August 2006 I cleaned my lenses. I started to see more and clearer! Then, it was too late to accept what I had turned into! My world was so different when I could see it clearer!!!

Then, as usual in me...I wanted more! So much so that I have decided to look deep in those green eyes to see only but a new me! A new possibility, a new Dao.

The contact lenses were still there but this time I could see without obstructions. I could see what I wanted - I could see what I was getting.

Then, as usual in me...(hang on...did I mention this already???) I wanted more (yes, sounds familiar - I think I've heard this before in my life a few thousand times...) Ok, I wanted more... And...what do I do? Get rid of the contact lenses all together! So that the dirt, the fog, the discomfort, the possibility of losing the characteristics that my eyesight had at the time...I didn't want to loose the quality I had.

So now I don't have anything obstructing my eyes. I can look at those green eyes without anything in between. There are no barriers, no obstacles, no adjustment needs to be made!

We can finally look eye to eye!